Pieces Of Me....

Sunday Sing Along

2010-10-17T15:52:00.006+05:30

I always come across a song that I've never heard before, I end up loving it & it ends up getting stuck in my head. So I've decided to start posting songs that I haven't ever heard before. So let me know if you've heard this one before and if you like it. So enjoy.

Anna Nalick - Breathe (2AM)

2 AM and she calls me 'cause I'm still awake,
"Can you help me unravel my latest mistake?,
I don't love him. Winter just wasn't my season"
Yeah we walk through the doors, so accusing their eyes
Like they have any right at all to criticize,
Hypocrites. You're all here for the very same reason

'Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button, girl.
So cradle your head in your hands
And breathe... just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe

May he turned 21 on the base at Fort Bliss
"Just a day" he said down to the flask in his fist,
"Ain't been sober, since maybe October of last year."
Here in town you can tell he's been down for a while,
But, my God, it's so beautiful when the boy smiles,
Wanna hold him. Maybe I'll just sing about it.

Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table.
No one can find the rewind button, boys,
So cradle your head in your hands,
And breathe... just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe

There's a light at each end of this tunnel,
You shout 'cause you're just as far in as you'll ever be out
And these mistakes you've made, you'll just make them again
If you only try turning around.

2 AM and I'm still awake, writing a song
If I get it all down on paper, it's no longer inside of me,
Threatening the life it belongs to
And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud
And I know that you'll use them, however you want to

But you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button now
Sing it if you understand.
and breathe, just breathe
woah breathe, just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe.

( Dedicated to Anubha )

My PARAMORE Playlist

2010-10-12T17:23:00.005+05:30

Here's Paramore, the band I'm currently in love with. These are some of the songs I like, give it a listen. Hope you like you them. Enjoy!

The Only Exception - Paramore

Misguided Ghosts - Paramore

All I Wanted - Paramore

Brick By Boring Brick - Paramore

Careful - Paramore

Decode - Paramore

A Realization

2010-10-09T13:47:00.005+05:30

Not everyone in this world receives the same blessings that you and I do. Not everyone can afford food, clothing, shelter, comfort and the same opportunities, that you and I are so lucky to have. We tend to question our purpose in life and always have too many complaints. I know I'm one of those who questions her existence and keeps cribbing about everything in her life. What about you?

We should not forget that we have a great purpose, its to help one another and get through this life and make the world a happier, a peaceful and a better place to live in. Today I saw someone who has had it worse then me, who has lost everything and still has a smile on their face and I'm the one whose unhappy, how ironic is that. So lets spread the message of peace, joy , laughter, smiles and happiness.

In the words of the late John Lennon: " You may say I'm a dreamer but I'm not the only one, I hope someday you will join us and the world will live as one "

I found this video on YouTube and it spoke to me, hope it does to you too.

What If God Was One Of Us - Alanis Morissette

Happy Birthday John Lennon

2010-10-08T16:13:00.004+05:30

Here's my tribute to the Legendary John Lennon on his 70th birthday.......

To a man who gave us songs like "Imagine", "Give Peace A Chance" and many more.

Happy 70th Birthday John Lennon. RIP....

Imagine - John Lennon

This song was also performed by Amber Riley, Lea Michele, Kevin Mchale and Cory Monteith on the TV show "Glee". It's a must watch.

Imagine - Glee

Fairy Tales & Fantasies

2010-10-05T10:59:00.005+05:30

You know when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales? That fantasy of what your life would be -- white dress, prince charming who’d carry you away to a castle on a hill. You’d lie in your bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa clause, the tooth fairy, prince charming -- they were so close you could taste them. But eventually you grow up and one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is, it’s hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely because almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope and faith that one day they would open their eyes and it would all come true.

At the end of the day, faith is a funny thing. It turns up when you don’t really expect it. It’s like one day you realize that the fairy tale is slightly different than your dream. The castle, well it may not be a castle. And it’s not so important that it’s happily ever after -- just that it’s happy right now. See, once in a while, once in a blue moon, people will surprise you. And once in a while, people may even take your breath away.

Priscilla Ahn - "Dream"

SMILE !

2010-09-24T18:02:00.006+05:30

" I smile just to show you i'm happy.

I smile just to show you I've moved on.

I smile just to show you that I'm not broken on the inside,

I smile just to show you that without you I can carry on. "

TODAY! Tomorrow may be too LATE!

2010-09-04T19:44:00.003+05:30

If you love your parents, and never had the chance to show them... do it.

Maybe today you have them to show them how you feel. if you don't and they leave today, then tomorrow can be too late.

If you have friends whom you really appreciate.. . tell them.

Maybe they appreciate you as well. They may leave or go far away today, tomorrow can be too late.

If you need a hug of a friend... ask her/him for it.

Maybe they need it more than you do. And if you don't ask for it today, tomorrow can be too late.

If you still love a person that you think has forgotten you...tell her/him.

Maybe that person has always loved you. And if you don't tell her/him today, tomorrow can be too late.

If you're in love with somebody, but that person doesn't know...tell her/him.

Maybe today, that person is also in love with you. And if you don't say it, tomorrow can be too late.

If you're angry with someone and nobody's there to fix the situation... fix it yourself.

Maybe today, that person still wants to be your friend. And if u don't, tomorrow can be too late.

I Hope You Find It...

2010-08-16T12:16:00.006+05:30

You walked into my life one day,

And I knew it wouldn't be the same,

You changed me from the way I was,

And I knew we would be there for each other always.

We had our ups and downs,

But we got through it together,

Shared our memories , our dreams , our secrets,

And trusted each other.

Then something changed,

You changed,

You lost yourself,

And I saw you search for yourself in everyone.

I tried to be there,

I tried to help,

But I guess it wasn't enough.

I saw you push people away,

And then I pulled myself away,

But as much as it hurt me to do that,

I knew or I thought I knew that

I was doing the right thing for you,

Cuz' I knew I'd never be able to understand

what you were going through.

Had I only known then what I know now,

I would have chosen different.

Had I only known that

Leaving you on your own then

Would mean losing you,

I would have never left.

And then it happened,

The thing I feared the most,

I lost ...

And it hurt.

Now you've changed,

And I've changed too.

I don't think things will ever be the same,

And I so wish this weren't true,

But I just want to tell you,

I hope you find whatever it is your looking for,

I hope all your prayers are answered,

And I hope you find your happiness too.

About Me

2010-07-31T17:10:00.003+05:30

As i don't have an About Me page on my Blog, thought i'd make it a post.

favourite Movie : The Note Book & My Best Friend's Wedding

favourite TV show : FRIENDS

favourite Book : Love Story by Erich Segal & Tuesdays with Morrie by Mitch Albom

(current) favourite Song : Flightless Bird American Mouth - Iron & Wine

favourite Colour combination : Blue & Brown and Pink & Green

favourite things to wear : Jeans, t-shirt & osho slippers or shorts & t-shirt

favourite things to do : read a book, watch a movie, dance....

favourite place to eat : my house & my mom's food

favourite Scripture : " Ask and you shall receive, seek and you shall find, knock and the door will be opened to you " - Matthew 7:7

favourite quote : " Love is patient; love is kind and envies no one. Love is never boastful, nor conceited, nor rude; never selfish, not quick to take offence. There is nothing love cannot face; there is no limit to its faith, its hope, and its endurance. In a word, there are three things that last forever: faith, hope and love; but the greatest of them all is love. "

" Give, and it shall be given to you. For whatever measure you deal out to others, it will be dealt to you in return. "

A Sign ....

2010-07-27T20:06:00.003+05:30

I seem to be seeing this verse a lot these days. I heard it in church this Sunday, read it in an article last week, my mom quotes this verse to me every time she tells me to have faith in the Lord. I guess its a Sign from the big man up there & i think he's telling me he's not giving up even if I am.

" Ask and you shall receive, seek and you shall find , knock and the door will be opened to you " - Matthew 7:7

Blue Christmas!!!

2009-12-26T16:56:00.003+05:30

When I was a kid, I waited every year for the month of December to arrive. I waited for Christmas to arrive. I couldn’t wait to go shopping for my dress, to put up the decorations, to put up the Christmas tree, the wreath, the star, to help my mom make the sweets and chocolate cake. But this year I didn’t feel like Christmas at all. I didn’t get excited like I always did. I didn’t feel like doing any of the things that once made me happy, that have become a family tradition. I didn’t even attend midnight mass.

I was sad this Christmas. I don’t know why. Instead I should have been happier. I got the job that I always wanted. I finally got through my interviews for Indigo. I’ll be flying as a flight attendant for Indigo airlines soon and some how I’m still not happy. Things that I once thought would make me happy don’t anymore. People don’t seem close anymore. I feel so disconnected from people who meant so much to me. Just felt like being all alone. Even with my friends around me for Christmas, I felt lonely. I felt all alone.
What’s happened to me????
I wish I knew……
I wish didn’t feel all this that I’m feeling right now…..
I wish I didn’t feel anything at all…. no happiness, no pain, no nothing …
I wish I could be immune to feelings.
I wish.

JUDGEMENT

2009-11-06T21:44:00.001+05:30

There was a man who had four sons. He wanted his sons to learn not to judge
things too quickly. So he sent them each on a quest, in turn, to go and look
at a pear tree that was a great distance away.

The first son went in the winter, the second in the spring, the third in
summer, and the youngest son in the fall.

When they had all gone and come back, he called them together to describe
what they had seen.

The first son said that the tree was ugly, bent, and twisted.

The second son
said no it was covered with green buds and full of promise.

The third son disagreed; he said it was laden with blossoms that smelled so
sweet and looked so beautiful, it was the most graceful thing he had ever seen.

The last son disagreed with all of them; he said it was ripe and drooping
with fruit, full of life and fulfillment.

The man then explained to his sons that they were all right, because they
had each seen but only one season in the tree's life.

He told them that you cannot judge a tree, or a person, by only one season,
and that the essence of who they are and the pleasure, joy, and love that come

from that life can only be measured at the end, when all the seasons are up.

If you give up when it's winter, you will miss the promise of your spring,
the beauty of your summer, fulfillment of your fall.

Moral:

Don't let the pain of one season destroy the joy of all the rest.

Don't judge life by one difficult season.

Persevere through the difficult patches
and better times are sure to come some time or later

( Got this in my email inbox today, just thought I’d share it with all of you )

Things I've Learnt .....

2009-10-14T18:57:00.005+05:30

Life is just one damned thing after another. You get through one problem and another one pops up.

You have to be Strong no matter what. There’s nothing that can break you but yourself.

Communication, it's the first thing we really learn in life. Funny thing is, once we grow up, learn our words and really start talking the harder it becomes to know what to say or how to ask for what we really need.

Courage, it would seem, is nothing less than the power to overcome danger, misfortune, fear, injustice, while continuing to affirm inwardly that life with all its sorrows is good; that everything is meaningful even if in a sense beyond our understanding; and that there is always tomorrow.

Pain , even saying that word can bring back memories. Maybe we like the pain , maybe we are just wired that way. I guess, without it we wouldn’t know what it feels to be really happy. Its just something that we have to live with and remember that with the sorrow also comes happiness , just like after the rain there’s sunshine, just like that.

Happiness , we all crave it so much , don’t we? But maybe, just maybe we aren’t supposed to be happy. Maybe gratitude has nothing to do with joy. Maybe being grateful means recognizing what you have for what it is, appreciating the small victories, admiring the struggle it takes simply to be human. Maybe we're thankful for the familiar things we know. And maybe we're thankful for the things we'll never know. Maybe at the end of the day, the fact that we have the courage to still be standing is reason enough to celebrate. The small things that happen to us in life that’s real happiness and that’s what counts.

Hope , the best of all. With hope we can conquer anything, get through anything. Hoping that one day everything will be alright, even if it won’t , just keeps us from losing our mind, keeps us sane. It’s something that never lets you give up. It’s what got me so far.

Four hundred years ago, a well-known English poet had an opinion about being alone. John Donne, he thought we were never alone. Of course, it was fancier when he said it. "No man is an island entire unto himself." Boil down that island talk, and he just meant that all anyone needs is someone to step in and let us know we're not alone.

All our lives, most of us live in denial, we live in this bubble, a world we’ve created for ourselves, but one day that bubble has to break and then we have to face the world, face reality. We can only lie to ourselves for so long. We get tired, we are scared, denying it won’t change anything. Stop being afraid and see reality for what it truly is. Sooner or later we have to put aside our fears and face the world, head on, guns blazing. Denial, it’s not just a river in Egypt, it’s a freaking ocean, and we have to keep from drowning in it.

At the end of the day, what we really want is to be close to somebody, so this thing where we keep our distance and pretend that we don’t care is total crap. We pick and choose who to remain close to, the people who stick by u, till the end of the day those are the ones worth keeping. So never ever sacrifice yourself for some one who's not worth the pain, family, friends, life these matter the most.

Boundaries don’t keep other people out, they fence you in. Life is messy and that’s how we are made. So we can waste our lives drawing lines or we can live our lives crossing them.

Old wounds never heal , all we can hope for is that we will be lucky enough to forget them.

Remember, that life is like an hour glass eventually everything hits the bottom, and all we have to do is wait it out till someone comes and turns it around or we can turn it around ourselves. Our life, it’s what we choose to make it.

I had to start somewhere so I started...

2009-09-26T12:41:00.008+05:30

I don’t think of myself as a morning person but you give me a really good cup of tea / coffee and slowly the caffeine kicks in and I can pull my thoughts together. I don’t know what happened this morning, I was drinking my Saturday morning cup of tea , I call it that because on all the other days I don’t get to have tea because I get up at 6 and I’m always in a hurry to get to work and I miss out on tea. So Saturdays and Sundays are the days I really enjoy my tea and that’s when it hit me, “I need to start blogging today”. Really weird!! But this isn’t just a random thought, I’ve wanted to start blogging since a really long time but I don’t know, something always held me back, maybe the fear that I think I don’t write that well or the fear that I won’t take criticism well, believe me , I don’t .

Anyway, I have no idea what I'm going to write about so I’ll start off by introducing myself. I’m Natassia aka Mona by all my friends (long story behind the name ). I come from a middle class family. My mom, my younger sister and brother and Flash (my pet dog) that’s my family. I have a lot of friends but a few really close ones who know everything about me. I'm a tea addict, give me tea at anytime of the day and I’ll drink it. Reading, music and dance are the things that I wouldn't ever get bored of. My family, friendships and trust are the things I value most in life. Without them I don’t think I would be the person I am today. My mom’s my inspiration, my idol, the person I look up to , she’s gone through a lot for my siblings and me. Her strength and courage are the things I admire.

I took to writing as a teenager. I used to watch a show “The Secret World of Alex Mack” and one of the episodes was about how she’s given this journal by her elder sister and she starts writing her diary, about all the people in her life, the people she loves, the people she hates etc. That’s where I got the idea that I should start writing a diary too. But then I stopped writing somewhere around my SY or TY year. The only person who ever read my diary was my best friend Anu. She was the only person I could trust, who would keep everything I’d written in my diary a secret. I used to read Anu’s blogs and tell her that I could never write the way she did and let me tell you she writes really well. Anu was the one who told me that she thought I had it in me to start blogging and that I wrote better than I thought I did. I don’t know where she got that idea from because if she got that idea from my diary then I should tell you that when I read my diaries now I laugh at the things I’ve written in them and the way I’ve written something’s, I was such a kid then . I think that the only reason I have started blogging now is because of those things that Anu told me, if it wasn’t for her I don’t know how many years I would have taken to get here. Thanks a lot Anubha, without you I wouldn’t be here.

I hope I can survive here, and I really hope this isn’t a mistake, because if it is I’m going to be really embarrassed in some years when I read my blog just like my diary. This is my first post so people please keep the criticism to a minimum ok (just kidding). Hopefully I can come up with ideas so that I can write another post. Alright then I’m off, I’ll go have another cup of tea, one I’ve been craving for so long. Until then, Happy Blogging!

Xoxo

Mona.